The Language Is Changing

a president feeling of bliss with the grip of well worn shoes looking almost brand new electrified to go. and instant effect, like the best cocaine, or a more literal approach, caffeine. a rippling pulse, from a more mechanical dream, fuelling dreams and growing pots of love in handbags stowed away for next season. things are changing, evidently, and we cant help but claw at the glimpses of strangers passing us by on busy streets for their minds contain fragments of us, fragments and pixels and tiny actualities that on any given Sunday, you would steal back. planning an attack, but suddenly out of whack, you let the strangers wander into crowds of blurred faces because they will forever remember you, better then you will ever remember yourself because the language is changing, just like the seasons, this you doesn't last under the falling leaves of autumn and your bones would merely break if seduced into old winters clutching calloused grip, and the rain washes you out each and every spring but with perfect measure so you can become a tidied hot mess for the summer sun, so it can cast a different shade of love on your clothes and allow a new peep hole for your soul to blossom at untimely places for all the wrong people.

Pleasure Me This

The idealistic pleasure of the teasing breathing parts that have lungs grasping for air. The sexual current, an electricity for the masses, has begun a pent up concoction within the very mouth of being filthy. The game of twister with garments and words all building up and shaking down through the body of extreme desire. Bumpy road, you riding it? Smooth sailing and no fun was ever had without the rough seas for all the world to see the quick quake of a pleasure craft. Pleasure me this, magnetic ideas clinging to the zippers on my pants, if I were wearing any pants, so they cling to the nylon of the night and the depriving swarm of this sexual energy has got us grabbing out for red bulls and cigarettes to keep our hands and mouth busy on the idea of our hands and mouth busy on you. The electric feel of the ideas the mind is piecing together quickly and the sexual involvement that has surrounded my clothing has got me naked. Naked lunch? The time for naked is now. The injection of a physical drug, got us junkies feelin' freaky and with a little more bass there would be trouble. Wants become sugar coated into beautiful attributes but who can we kid when all we want to do is get our kicks. The hopscotch game of naked. And keeping this sex to the cost of a verbal affair is really fucking me huh. The ironic actions of a verbal frenzy contorting everything that appeared to be oh so fitting. You'd fit me perfectly. The excess is good. The hope towards not seeing and ignoring the foolishness of all that is fooling the fun out of this. Pleasure me this, won't you?

Love Burn Rush Breathe Bubble

the interesting actions of eyes. streaming conversation from a whole other language, from a whole other dictionary of verbs and nouns and adjectives and places that your not sure exist but they all look dazzling. such a state of piercing interaction happening. you watch it slow and steady, trying to highlight the importance in everything that is conjuring up and dancing about. sledge hammering wonder, swimming around like fishes and butterflies inside a skull of worries. dressing up curiosity with a semi sauntering idealism that keeps catching on your lips while you try to harbour all your blossoming fantasies inside the lining of your best clothes. wearing them on the town, not caring about the faces who try to pry open the seems with all they've got, really talking, expensive talk leaving cheap stains on the abundance of crushes you've collected and examined and swiftly left in other places so no one would mention the potential of it all. candle light entourage and a night to remember, watching everything we love burn and rush and breathe and bubble; watching everyone we know, love and burn and rush and breathe and bubble.

Is Your Heart Broken, Like A Sweater

Was it the ice cube that cracked the ship or was it all the emotions aboard? People forever feeling things, forever such a long time. Is it the tears that dampen the tissue used to soak up the feelings or is that wetness coming from the intensity of the action that is causing the people to erupt like a volcano into an atmosphere of change. Is it the action of feet walking over and through fires that indeed make them sore, or the constant thought of moving forward, the strain on the entire body… pushing those feet in new directions that indeed bring on the actuality of it’s pain. Do our hearts break? Is there a moment we were feel a crack right in half, does the rest of our body send blood or empathy to the heart to relieve it of this pain, is their a heartbreak doctor, we call, not a soulful singer but is there an actual license to fixing a broken heart. Have we compared our heart to something that breaks, but what exactly… everything can break; glass, rocks, houses, noses, feet, and sweaters. Is your heart broken like a sweater, thread slowing fraying, one by one? Is your heart broken like a nose, all bloody and twisted, all black and blue? Is your heart broken like a toaster; in fact is your heart toast? Kaput. The quality of emotion flooding parts of the mind, leaving it dry and blank. The irony of the impact of words to the surface, creeping into the depths of places you didn’t realize could be reached. The moves people are waiting to play in a game you weren’t prepared for. The rule book in the fire, everything goes, no uniform required. You’ve got to be committed, they’ll take you for all you’ve got and by the looks of it, you don’t have much to lose.

The Brutality of Your Friendship

The brutality of your friendship, imprisoning those all around you. You are such a waste of space. Time is ripping itself off the clock, one solitary second as each flick of the second hand is slicing into its own wrist. Suicide. You are friendship suicide. Voluntary of course, but you sucker them in. you make it so easy don’t you, that is your plan right, your shifty and worthless and entirely demeaning. Sometimes I think people only board that ship to really help you out, what they don’t realize is that you are plotting and planning to make yourself look ultra violet so this is your plan of attack. The words you spit are all ploys and decoys and easily spin your vocabulary like ugly spiders spin their webs and you are eating them you, your friends, one by one, all alive and suffering… this is your favourite part, to watch them squirm. Climbing in and out of their beds, smooth sailing – for you of, yes.. because that is all you ever think about, you and your makeshift friendships in your make-believe world, when will you grow up – sadly I wish it was all you’re fault but these people are dancing around you, fixated on the better of you, the hope of the better, optimistic fraudulence all neglecting and playing with these people’s emotions. Pitiful and grasperated, looking away to rush to your side, rushing to your side to look away, you’re shady. When your monarchy falls and they attack you and bring you down, we will throw a party and you won’t be invited, your ID doesn’t work here.. we don’t know you, your identification is a scam because you are a scam at life, this is a game and you don’t know how to play. we're sippin' coffee and getting jittery off the memories of you, the filth that remains in our minds of you.

A Bend in the Truth, Still Lies.

an action followed by a reaction, coming together with a sense of urgency. the urgency of stability coming through a wave length of compassion that doesn't exist. a trivial feeling of need washing over an even heavier feeling of grief, I've suddenly realized things I cannot tell you. an exuberance of everything blending towards a junction of saucy bureaus and ink smudges on winning tickets and sealed but, unaddressed letters and soft served ice cream in this hard hard world. a tactful leverage on the simplistic things, dipped into hate and served on the rocks. a bend in the truth, still lies. we lie with the trust and yet still hide, in the shadows of what we want and do we ever have it, but we'll tell you different to keep our pockets full and our hands busy. busy with what we want and no where close to cutting knots, creating new ones to keep everything uneasy. funny how the jokes aren't funny anymore and the cants/wonts/donts are the yes yes yes of what we've ran out of, suddenly where our no no nos are rooted from. neon signs show the vacancies of our hearts yet snap off when we get together. uncanny the relevance of the light bulb yet we choose to admit and dismiss it for the happy birthday hours of beautiful things and tender eyes in exchange for days of hiccups and heart punches, one up - video game swag like we're kids and nothing can touch us. but we can feel it, the touch of the axe, we're creating something to a certain point and then we realize a limitation, an obstacle we won't move so we exit and start again, always ending up to that exact same moment. treading on nothing with no treads, without a thought until the thoughts break the surface and all we can do is think think think about the actions and the feelings and a tangled messed this has turned out to be, at a time when we were so certain this is where we would not be. heavy heart, needs to lighten up.. valuables need not to stray for the serpent tongue of fantastic nanoseconds leaving you sea sick for days. the chemical, that one that links your heart and brain together so with every beat a thought is forced into your mind and you swallow it's importance because now is not the time for importance, for the matters of heart and mind battle are no match for the actions causing reactions. we are reacting in the best of worst times.

Plant vs. Popularity

the steady sacrifice of your mind to the turmoil of the gathering errors colliding with good behavior in and amongst a mood ring changed colour of hypocrisy and deviant love. a powerful feeling of elongated hope, inspiring childish limbs to act like adults and strike feeling into places with discarded selfishness and boiling emotions. an easy action of perpetual devotion to a subversive audience and unaccountable deliveries of fumes have hazardly endangering a scenery you've longed to have cluttered. a filterless mirage of pure and impure words audible to the skin and touching the pulse that links the world in one giant satisfying sigh. the fiery grief of an alliance turned bad and the bad continuing to roll and collect a raging few and creating a voice, that same voice telling stories and spinning webs, catching all the spiders in their tracks, tracks we all follow, and throw in other directions. watching disaster on repeat all the while when we sleep, peace falls to a place between our hearts so we can rise and demise in a growing trait of self hate. a seedless plantation in a garden of opinions, adapting to its neighbor, a struggle of the plant and the popularity.

Between The Baseline And The Silence

To define the definition of the cracking sound your life makes in the middle of a crowd between the baseline and the silence. The drop of a drink causing a back splash of empathy towards the subject who is dying for company. Batting eyelashes in all directions, not tipsy, but walking a little crooked from this unnatural sort of events, and the source, who is documenting your plummet this evening will not show the beginning, a beginning of bedazzled calm and heart felt laughs, the ones that erupt deep inside the soul, where most laughs are kept. The break of everything. A heel… a nail… a heart… the break in the silence of a crowd between the baseline and the silence. Listening closely for they cant get their mouths off you, the lips are full of yous, pulling and pushing, a verbal tug-o-war on the things that build you up and break you down and their trying sweetie, they are trying to really break you down tonight. The love for a hot mess production in the gloomy setting of banging baseboards and you’ve stumbled to a no mans land beautiful and this is just the beginning to your end, and they had thought you ended a long time ago, but that voice, that nagging little voice that floats along the baseline has got it’s teeth in you and you really taste good because it’s beginning to sink to all new levels and it’s not leaving, not going anywhere, no exist in sight, and you’ll try to laugh it off because there in between the baseline and the silence your loving the loving off you’re getting and your so off, so far off.

Forgetting the Age of the Company Around You

A playground filled with adult things; brief cases, lust and confidence. A jungle gym tangled up with deceit, embrace, and kisses. The forewarned actions of the ones you trust, trusted, and the ones you wish you could. An abandoned fate of actuality washing over flower beds with planted hate. An abundance of emotion all mixed around like milkshakes on a summer day, the associated acclamation of the ones you want to stay and the ones you want to send away. A party filled with just the right amount of truth and just the right amount of fun. Loot bags filled with party favors, of a different sort. Silently spilling substances into the punch and cake, sneaking mouthfuls of poison to keep the words at bay. Pin the tale on the donkey, you have quickly forgotten the age of the company surrounding you, you take part because you feel comfortable degrading yourself for a couple of moments, out of harms way. The mind realizes the foolishness of this action and stabs parts of yourself with hate, you rise from the challenge and settle with knowing what's at stake. You've become accustomed, to something you use to be, the younger version of yourself throws away its gained wisdom and flocks to safety in havens that won't fit your grown self. A game of hot potato, but you've taken to staying up late. A school ground tactic of whose who, and you want to fit in, you want to remain. Not sure when it happens, but you wake up and you think, what the hell.. Strung together with adult profanities, and you've decided to stay grown. You tried to be the bigger person, you even acted small.. But what's the point when your opponent is nothing but a slob.

I've Got to Go, but I Stay Anyway

the interchanging ideas and the sudden breech of exactly what they were trying to save. the safety of this accident is quite upsetting to the audience of surrounding eyes waiting for the explosion of something much bigger then them, bigger then you and i. we aren't in fear but we are in the constant busstle of what we are doing, hyper aware of the in activeness of the activities we are engaged in, suited up ready to jump, but arent going to make the plunge because we cant decided what we actually want to do with ourselves so we dance on the possibilities and we weigh our ambitions on the strongness of our next moment, and then when they all snap into place, connect four, we are hungrier then hippos. so hungry for it, the fervent beauty of everything that is happening but we like it, oh yeah we like it and they like it oh yeah they like it. they are cheering for us! can you hear them, but we have our skeptics and we love them, we like them too but we cant help and enjoy their company. we are trying to cover it up, with anything we can find, but we are doing an awful job at it. this is such a bad job, but we keep at it because, well we arent to sure of anything but it feels so good, so we keep doing it and then everything crumbles and everything rebuilds and we knock it all down to watch it all come back together, and you're telling me stop but you're telling me to go and your asking me to stay and your asking me to stay and i cant help but stay, i want to stay, i've got to go, but i stay anyway.

A Bad Excuse Is Better Than No Excuse At All

That fragrance streaked across my good times. The rush and hush of hurried hands, tongues, and minds. Sprinkling your touch all across my body and calendar. Undetermined consequences but understandable affection and attention and a strong sense of caring and not caring. Caring for you and not about those who see it, with peering eyes but peering into the eyes whom hold care for you too. A feeding frenzy of uncontrollable like, a severe case of want and a budding sliver of need. A pressing point of pressing, me pressing into you, you pressing into me and the best slumber I've ever had. Tangible slumber that mimicked tangible times and suddenly I'm exactly where I didn't want to be but I'm starting to get the feeling that I just want to be where ever you decide to be. Shame on me. Polishing shoes, getting ready to step over and right on top of those who are in the way of what I'm feeling, because suddenly I am fleeting, and not just with the emotion but the motion in action and the time to act is now, if I don't shake and shimmy that I can't complain, a bad excuse is better than no excuse at all.

Shut Up and Talk to Me

Jumping jack emoticons and this is nothing but a text message love affair. Adding and subtracting, letters from words to make them appear less meaningful. “Luv” replaces love and “I want you”s linger on the literary disaster of “wanna chill”. Electronic hugs and kisses making up for a physical connection. Connecting to WiFi is seemingly more important than connecting with each other, on a more personal level. Charging batteries so hearts can beat longer, we are already living in a robotic age, where we have come to grip what were feeling with the buttons of a keyboard. Goodnight turning into “gnite” and good morning were a thing of the past. Chivalry is not dead mind you it has taken on an entire new form, an entire entity of wave lengths, instead of holding doors we hold Blackberries and iPhone, instead of politely saying your departure you text acronyms like “GTG” “TTYL” in a word where languages are a everywhere, we slack on the very essence of what we want to say to obtain what we want. Don’t text it to, say something to me, anything, don’t talk to me in your letters and half slacked words where you have gone an sawed off the flavor of the words. Say something. Shut up and talk to me.

Match Make You Over

The object of your eye, attainable. However, the ruins you have decided to sleep in keep you from obtaining and have you restraining from admitting just exactly what you want to admit. Full of wants. You want this and that and some of this and some of that, like Frankenstein's bride. Match make you over and keep whatever you want for spare parts. Access denied. You are disqualified because it is clearly recognized you aren't worth the trouble. Tripping on ideas, and loose ends. Trying them out for size, glistening post-its of happiness keep you reeling in more and more and the hourly addiction to whom you are attracted to begins a frenzy in your membrane and you take two steps forward to take twenty steps back and we're at exactly at the pivotal moment of walking on, moving on. The action of gathering one's pride and stuffing it into their pockets so they won't have to carry on their shoulders, and the action of pushing.. Pushing your feelings all the way down

Forge the Fornication

Frazzled fights on fiery nights and bedazzled embezzlement keeping what you don't want buoying on the rim of a salted glass. Contents of the weak hearted slowly spilling from a puncture that happened and was ignored, an ignorance with the potential of bittersweet symphonies. Songs with lyrics that aren't easy to remember. A remembered moment of toppling passion doused in heat. Getting so hot, so quickly with images of you on an overhead projector, a projector of emotions being beamed crossed the room into the candy dish and I'm encouraging your fingertips to rifle through it and pick out the pieces you want, it'll fit your ego like a 100 piece puzzle but your bound to be tipsy with your actions and drop the most important piece right under the sofa and hurried eyes will all see it happening but in their minds, they'll doubt you, you and your ability, the seriousness of ownership and lessen their pride for you because your throwing social obscenities into a crowd of strangers, strange to you comfortable to me and the candy dish will be as empty as it was full, of star cuts of my mind, because someone there soon realizes their is more to those pieces than your tipsy fingers will ever realize. Morning accusations but its way pass 7pm and evening delights with the softest hint of decapitation, slice the air from my lungs and bottle it for the sun, for newest heights will not force you to forge the fornication and wake up on the verge of hesitation, the time is slowly ganging up on you and slowly pushing things in other directions and its swimmingly slow and you don't even know if you sped up just seconds prior you wouldn't misplace exactly what your after. After all your misguiding yourself to a belief you don't believe in but conforming to the comfortability of the way it all swings left.

Midnight Snack On My Heart

Consensual adoration on a blistering nerve that seems to bubble and twist at the slightest membrane wander in a direction I've been undirected too. Good morning inspiration. Waking up with the urge to tackle what I've been trying to say for months. Summer heat no longer at my feet and fall please don't push me to fall any further than what I've already done. Good afternoon confusion. Where your morning inspiration is suddenly bombarded with thoughts and feelings, over sensing the entire situation, making the situation a conflict and being conflicted by such monarchy of self imposed puzzlement. Good evening understanding. Full circle kick and your back to the acceptance, to the slow steady beating of thought and heart to the exact same inspiration, like the sun and moon, full cycle. Sleep seems to be enough to saunter it all together, a present in a dream. Midnight snack on my heart.

A Potion in the Sky to Filter Our Senses

triumph, this dump, are you ready to stand up. for what you want, a little bit of who knows what, and you don't care because they don't care and i've learnt that cares get you no where. wake up, in the dark and realize your just as smart, as you'll ever be, and what are smarts to a person like me, running off of energy, and i'm prepared to take another shot to chalk it up, and i'm not going to back down for your sake, i'm walking away, look at how lovely this is turning out to be. focused on the quarter machine prize because instant luxury might be better than long term goals and we're feeding the fire with less and less coal but it's seeming to grow out of control, we're dancing with no music on and sometimes this is the best way to do it, toppling over the idea of this and the image of that, but suddenly searching faces for more and more frets, don't sweat this moment. empowering the power that i've won, taken from a place that i must've been hidden from. breaking down doors, for a little more air, where has all the freedom gone in here, punching out windows for the perfect amount of light but if we had it our way it would always be night, except for that moment we do decide to dash, a little mixture of both would be acceptably clad, for a potion in the sky to filter our senses, i'm a little stoked to start this venture. packing my bags and no where to go yet, departure is undecided but i'm already half way out the door, and i'm not prepared to stop, for obstacles i do invite, and triumph, triumph.. everybody prepare to fight.

Colossal State of Confusion

The constant questioning of you, me, us, and them. The constant push and pull of doing what's right, but what is right and what is wrong. Are you happy? I can't tell, all I know is that your pulling on my heart strings here, and I wasn’t even sure I had any left. Stop making me so aware, hyper aware of what is going on, of what I want, because I know what I want I cannot have and what I have I'm trying to deal. I'm trying to make this easy, comfortable, but I was more comfortable before. Why are we pulling teeth, we aren't dentists and our truth does not lie in our teeth, it is in your heart and your head but they wont agree so your conscience is trying to punch them out, trying to make sense, but your are confusing me and confusing them and us and you and this is just a colossal state of confusion that I wasn't invited too, but I arrived on time with ample words to pry into things I thought I wanted to know, no, the things I still want to know but you will not tell me them because you don’t know just as much as I don’t know and my wants settle, they accept but then you come around and they burst and they are questioned and tempted and this temptation is causing me a heart attack, please don’t hurt me. Make up your mind, your like a joker in the deck of cards, so out of place, but perfectly placed and get to come and go as you please, with being missed to not being noticed but when you choose to be noticed your noticed and it's affecting, effecting, bubbling all around. A violent fight of words and feelings, nothing physical, but I want to be physical with you. I'm no longer fearing these things that have expanded within me, because I understand where they are coming from, and they are out of my control, sign the paper, send you back, write off - exhaust, what is happening here. What do you want? Can I ask you again. What do you want and whom is this all for because your destroying everything in your path while on your victory lap of making everything right, put up a fight, a battle for your wants, because I can no longer tell you about mine, it is all wasted time. Won't you waste time with me. Your time and mine. I'm a billionaire on the clock and I want to spend it all on you, but your actions and words don’t walk the walk and your nothing but talk and your changing your mind with the movement of the sun, and your pushing me away while trying to get close, and your ships are all mixed match your playing this game that doesn’t appeal to me.. A game I wasn’t prepared for and teetered with joining, and now I've some how wound up in it and I can't I can't I tell myself easily, but then your around and I'm doing everything wrong, a conflicted conflict that I want to be evicted from. A simple grade school tactic, with the yes and the no and the boxes for silent x's that mark exact moments in a pivotal time.. Is this pivotal for you yet?

Your A City

a beautiful dance we've mastered with such radiant knowledge. you know, i know but they say the first step is admitting you have a problem, we are such a perfect problem. floating hope, like the optimistic do, casting their minds to the side and allow themselves to forget it all. i can't forget, but i choose to remember, and i'm feeling. feeling like a city.. all bright and alive all busy and running. we're running. we love this run, a run for our money a run for our time. lost in our minds in ourselves. i'm swimming within your thoughts and i'm drowning in my thoughts of you. this is a different kind of lifestyle. magazines have not yet glorified what we have found in one another, and no cosmo quiz could determine your gooeyness you have found for me. are you tired, from running, running around my mind and counting all the songs i've linked to pieces of you, times and moments, all shared so quickly that when the radio decides to play them i have snapshot adventures with all the things ive said, ive done. can i say more, do more, im really trying to do this right. but what is right! this city doesn't help me and i cant help myself and i cant help myself. i'm drunk at an AA meeting, and you've tagged along with me, like i stumbled in with the bottle.. half empty, totally warm and aroused with the embers of it's contents swimming in me. is this a city or a pool.. an ocean or a night club because the effects of you are all over me and i cant help but like the way they make me feel. im feeling like fire. like winter and snow. im hot and cool but not mean and icy, im struggling to keep my heart in my pocket, please dont fumble with my pockets. the beating is spreading so quickly, through my body and this is like an earthquake, there goes all the good and all the bad within this city and there goes everything into the ocean and i cant breath but im breathing in the depths of you and im trying to throw my valuables in the vault. this and that, to save them from this severe water damage that is bound to make us wishy-washy about everything but im not. and your not. and i cant. and you cant. and you could, but you wont and i wont but i could and i should stop this and you should stop that and we could start that without any of this, and why is this the easiest hardest thing ive ever done, my heart a tangle of twizzlers, a sweet sticky heaping mess of the best thing i cant shake.

Self Greed, For the Things Within Me Are Mine

Single people riding the bus. Single handily taking all the spaces where single thoughts will ride from each single stop, swiftly getting on, singly getting off. Single people walking down the street, in massive groups, disguising the singleness, and each single day merging into each single week, each single month, each single year. A single decade of single hope. Single greed, clouding up single ambition and single moments colliding into a single emotion. That sane emotion cutting and dividing into a single attribute and that same spot of consistency hurrying at the single education of single atonement. The forever turmoil of regrouped singleness to mirage the concept of forever we stand alone and alone we stand alone, a better friend of mine than those clustered together, sharing a brain and a heart and a thought and often shoes and pants. Self greed for the things within me are mine.

Let's ZigZag

unsure of where i'm stepping, i might step on you and not even notice. my eyes seem to be pulling to a whole other dimension these days, and for sometime, they have settled on you. it's not a big predicament, and i don't want you to up and walk away because of the pleading of my pupils. does this make you feel uncomfortable because the sudden comfortability of my soul is nerve racking. go ahead, guess who, i'm willing to give you more than i think ever and i think everyone will notice, a constant notice, ads wanting to push into my space, look into my place and i want to take you there. randomized issues bubble poppin' at the incidental things i'm about to open and the constant hurried madness of my foot steps to the abrupt slowness of it all, is strange. i must tell you this doesn't happen, not with the sun, not with the rain and now i've got nothing and i'm want to give you everything and that indeed could flare up unreasonable problems, but let's have problems, let's make things break and fix them, i'm scared, may i borrow your hands, to cover my eyes and feel your heart beat within your fingertips suddenly flutter on my eyelashes and blood with strengthen and truth be told, i've got many truths to spill on the canvas.