Consume and Kill Each Other

we breathed in the madness that was collecting

in the night around us, we had contributed such

sordid ideas with quick glances and shuffling feet,

we had wanted to be so near and so far from one

another all at once that we didn't know what

to do with all our thoughts but let them fall

over our lips and into the company of our

present, they looked at us, stunned and

conflicted. the wheels in their heads started

to spin and we willed the grit to settle on their

shoulders so that they could take some of our

weight. the wait we had for each other was

long over, fizzled out, now flat like soda left in

it's can out in the sun for hours, stung by bees

wanting to dance in it's syrup... 
we were so deathly sweet for each other and it

was all melting, all the chocolate kisses

now laid stale and broken and we wanted

the entire night to be aware of our battling

desire to both consume and kill each other.

the night so raw, exposed you exposing me

exposing you while the madness settled

and the whispers died to a silent vibration,

your cellphone sizzled on the table;

your other begging you to give up on me.