distant closeness, not looking for closure but comfort. liable reassurance to this heavy heart. the other kind of difficult, the severe case of difficult. sadness, balloon filled sadness, bursting all over the place. downsized parties to create less of an upset. almost at the ledge, but turning back because you've forgotten that and remember something lovely, right at the minute when the clock struck another minute. always striking, the fluid moment of forever, always happening, capping at your toes like wishy washy waves of bothersome.