depressed? son.

something undefined and kind of strange. you feel it in the pit of your stomach and everything kind of sizzles like pop rocks along your heart, it scares you. shakes you up. you can't quite wash it away. you try. the water punching you everywhere. your senses are electrified but still you feel ultimately consumed. it strikes your entire mind and you don't know where to turn. little heart attacks with the light on and can't say just what your feeling because the words wouldn't describe proper placement of such enveloping emotions that are battling your persona. a wrecking pull, tugging you down and suffocating you from the inside out. little knives. i'm scared and i don't know what's really happening. but it's happening. and i don't know what to do . i'm not scared like a horror movie, and i'm not scared because it's a sense of the unknown.. but i am scared of how whatever this is makes my heart race in consuming ways and makes my entire mind expand with such efforts.